Morning to all its another day without our beloveds.
OK, its early days for me really early and i am trying to get my head around the senselessness of my husbands death. We still havent had the funeral.
My conundrum is this. My daughter and her husband are having my very ex husbands girlfriend over for xmas (I actually quite like her). He passed 10 years ago. Anyway its not so much that, but my daughter wants to organise a Christmas lunch in a restaurant and is pushing me to go. She keeps on about it and although initially i kind of said oh ok, i was at a low ebb and not really thinking about anything.
Now i have had a few weeks to calm down a little i just dont want to go. I cant even bear to think about Christmas without Mike, it wouldnt be the same, it wouldnt be right. Me enjoying christmas (well i wouldnt to be honest), whilst he has passed only a few months.
How do i tell her without her getting upset? She is very strong willed and yes can be a bit pushy my fault i made her independant when she was young, although she is 45 now she can be a little overbearing.
We have had our issues over time but of late been getting on really well, I just dont want to rock the boat now I know she is doing this with good intentions.
But really i cant face it. I rarely go out anyway even when Mike was alive as my MS made it hard for me to sit to eat, so its not just mikes passing that is an issue.
Gulp, I am scared to say to her NO, and knowing my mouth i will just upset her.
I would really appreciate some help in this. Thanks. xx