Heartbroken new poster

[Fifebloke]

Found this forum tonight, I'm really struggling to come to terms with my 5 year old son passing away suddenly last month. He was really healthy and energetic and only turned 5 on feb 1st. Then he took ill on the 23rd before losing the fight a day later. We later found out it was flu that was the cause. Common flu. Even though he was vaccinated against it.
To say I cannot begin to come to terms with it is an understatement. I see him in my mind every minute of the day and when I close my eyes at night. I dread going to bed but dread waking up even more. My while life is a living nightmare and tbh I long to be with him again, as I am just an empty shell of a man these days.
But hopefully here can provide me with some help and some advice
Thank you

[Emz2014]

I am so sorry for your loss.  You must still be in shock after losing him so suddenly and so young
Sending a big hug, you will find a supportive group here, we have all lost loved ones.  Please keep talking with us, it does help xx

[Fifebloke]

Forgot it was April, it was February 24th we lost him but been the worst 5 weeks of my life since then

[Joann]

So so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of 

[Dave Administrator]

Hello and welcome Fifebloke to BUK.

In all the nearly 16 years we've had this group, it's always one of the hardest things to read when such young children are taken from their parents leaving them devastated and unconsolably broken hearted.

Please accept my very deepest sympathy, I cannot begin to imagine how painful it is for you right now in such early days.

Posting regular here all your emotions and thoughts that keep you awake no doubt, will benefit you so much with your healing process and you will make great friends here who will support you and listen with understanding and compassion.

We have a live chat room as you may have seen at the top of the page and that can be a lifeline during the evenings when the going gets tough and you need to chat.

Stay with us F, we are all here for you on your difficult journey I promise.

[longedge]

We're all together in our grief here and I keep asking myself whether mine is less or more than anybody else. It isn't, it's just different - my deepest sympathy to you.

[Hubby]

I am so, so sorry to hear of your tragic loss. I wish I could write something to ease the terrible pain you must be going through. My thoughts are with you and your family. 

[Fifebloke]

Thank you for the kind words everyone. Sitting here at the moment looking at photos crying my eyes out

[Dave Administrator]

Thank you for the kind words everyone. Sitting here at the moment looking at photos crying my eyes out

And who can blame you FB heartbreaking and coming to terms with the reality is a non awakening nightmare.

Maybe when your feeling a little stronger you can post a picture of your beloved little boy for you to share with us all.

Keep posting anyway it helps trust me.

[Fifebloke]

Sure here is just one of the many photos I have

[Dave Administrator]

It doesn't happen often that I'm lost for words but no wonder your crying FB, what a beautiful smiling little boy your Billy is in this most treasured picture.

You RIP little one 

[Norma]

My heart goes out to you Fifebloke, nothing anyone can say will take your pain away, I  cringe when i hear the term its only a virus, because i know how devastating a virus can be, just as you do hun, My son caught a virus, that attacked his heart. So hun all im going to say is please keep talking to us we will always be here for you, and look after yourself you need strength to get you through these early days xxx

 

[Hubby]

Thank you for sharing your treasured photograph of your son. He looks so happy with that cheeky grin on the fairground ride. Precious memories like this are what help us to get through our days of grief and are the true legacy of our loved ones.

[Emz2014]

What a gorgeous boy, a beautiful picture 
Its a painful journey, but we are here to help support you. Take little steps and rest when you need to xx

[Fifebloke]

Hi again I thought I would share a poem I wrote at 4am in the morning after Billy left us. If anyone would like to use it then certainly please feel free to do so


We have never known so much pain
Knowing we will never hold or kiss you again
Taken from us with no goodbye
To be the brightest star in the sky
Our comfort is your safe from harm
Cuddling into gods loving arms
We love you Billy and always will
Until we meet again, with your memories, our hearts we fill
Xxxxx