Twinkle, nobody knows really how you feel, we are all individuals. Really determined not to have another v bad day, went in the garden and took the saw to a tree which I had wanted to get rid of for some time. A bit drastic I know, but it certainly took my mind off things. I thought what would my mother do in my circumstances and I could hear her saying well, get on with it then, so I did. She was very practical, down to earth, typical Londoner. I have three rings of hers, one of which cost me more to have it repaired than what it was worth but it goes everywhere with me, a little bit of her. Time to spoil yourself Twinkle, chocs, TV, book, drink?