My darling mother passed away on 4th December, we have just had her funeral, but I can't accept she is really gone. Don't get me wrong, I have cried many tears especially when she first passed, then at her funeral, but apart from that, there hasn't been many as I can't accept she is gone forever. When will it finally hit me? I have 4 children, 2 of whom have cried their share of tears, and I have had to be strong for them too, 1 is too young to really understand and another who has autism so doesn't express anything and just carries on his life as normal. I really am going to find it hard spending our 1st Christmas away from her, but I know her spirit will be with us. I just need to grieve