My lovely loving soulmate of 40 years died 9 months ago. We thought we had years ahead of us together but not to be. Devastated. Virtually everything I really really value lost - joy, laughter, sunshine, playfulness, talking, understanding, closeness, intimacy, kindness, caring, trust, honesty, respect, passion, peace, sharing, love.....With her my heart had found its home. Now it’s lost, ripped apart and apprehensive about a future without her.
People say “but you have your grandchildren”. It’s ok. They cannot even begin to imagine what it’s like can they.