Well nearly got through my first mother's day without my mum. Just kept crying at certain points of the day, when i saw something, or thought about something. Met up with my sister and the kids which was nice for all of us, tried to find somewhere, where there weren't too many families out for the day. Went and released some balloons at mums favourite place, where she used to take all the grandkids.
I went out with the kids yesterday, so they could buy my card and present and everywhere i looked, was something to do with mother's day. I became really over whelmed in the card shop, as every where i looked was a reminder, that mums no longer with me. I just burst into tears in the middle of the shop... Then i just cried looking round the rest of the shops. The kids just kept hugging me.
Then the guy I've been seeing sent me a cruel text yesterday ending it. He ended it after mums funeral, moaning i didn't talk to him much at the funeral and that my kid's dad was there, but i was in such a mess, i begged him to take me back. The things you do when you are grieving aren't always the best decisions. All i wanted was mum yesterday to give me a hug and tell me I'll be ok. I'll never have her hugs again.