Hi Katie, so pleased you managed your first post here, it just takes a little getting used to then will be so easy once you become familiar with how things work.
27 years is a real long time to spend with anyone, and to suddenly loose that person comes as a great shock with disbelief it could have ever happened to you.
I hope when others in a similar position to what your in now will support you here, but let me tell you even just writing down the most inner and bottled up emotions and thoughts that drive you crazy can help with your healing big time.
Some members of past made diaries here to talk to their loved ones kind of a newsy and also love letter, which they then told the group how much this helped them in the early days just like it is for you right now.
I wish you great strength to make it through your journey Katie, and I promise you with all my heart you will get peace return back into your life one day, it just takes little baby steps to get there.