From having a few happy hours at the weekend, my week went very downhill from there. I have some decisions to make and being on my own, I would always ask Mum. Something really small, just started it of and Im just feeling so lost without mum. Whenever I drive to work, I always see ambulances driving past me and it always reminds me of the day, when I was driving to work and my sister called me to say, that Mum had called an ambulance. She had a heart attack at home and never recovered. It always upsets me when I see them and today at work, we had to call an ambulance for one of my clients and I nearly broke down. I had to go and hide away until they had gone.
Until you experience grieving, theres now way you can imagine how you feel.
Being a single mum is tough, but to lose the person who was your rock, just tears you apart.
This is just so tough and Im crying whilst typing this.
Its comforting to be on here, knowing that people just understand.
