I am so, so sorry for your loss. Many people simply won’t know what to say - or how to reach out. Post on here when every you need to. You will fine not alone although grief is indeeed a lovely time. ❤️

  Hi Sally, first post here for me haven't even introduced myself to the forum yet but have been reading people's accounts of their loved ones for about 11 months now and have not felt it necessary to actually sign up to the site that is until I read your predicament which as you describe so accurately as being a Nightmare that it is my soulmate Sue was also killed in a Road crash by a van driver out of his head on Cocaine then she was airlifted to Kings College Hospital in London I was sped down the hospital from Wateringbury in Kent only to be told on arrival that she'd died this all occured on August 20th 2017 we had been together for 41yrs and married for 34yrs so I'm definitely aware of what you're going through at the moment and how to even consider moving on seems momentous emotionally and well ....it Is! People will say you can do whatever you want now but as we are both aware that's exactly what we were doing with the one we loved BTW last month I turned 63 so as for starting again 😂 not going to happen my point being when you're younger you have dreams and aspirations whoops I'm off on one sorry Sally I'm supposed to be making you feel better 😊 Anyway it gets a little easier over time so hang in there one thing that helped me was how lucky I'd been to experience such Love with Sue as you have had with your husband and how now that I look around and see things from another perspective a lot of people have never had that including my Son now 34yrs and still in search of as he puts it what you and Mum had Right that's it could go on forever I could Sally just letting you know you're not alone and I'll keep an eye out for your posts because this site helped me more than I thought it would so keep visiting and my punctuation throughout is horrendous but guess what I don't care  have a Big Hug Sally

 :cray:I’ve also saved a fair bit of money as I’ve moved down two council tax brands AND I don’t have the bus fares to find, hopefully my bills will be lower as well, as it’s a much smaller property to heat etc,

I didn't know they flowered either, Ruth did but thought it wouldn't this far North which is why its particularly sad when it has and she missed it. The raised bed where the tree is is very overgrown at the moment and as soon as i can walk without my sodding crutches i will have a go and tidying it up but the garden is a lot of work but worth it in the end. Don't mention statues as i keep seeing loads at the garden centre and seem to think I NEED some of them lol....if i make it a memorial garden for Ruth that's an excuse to have statues of her favourite wildlife etc...I have Gargoyles already.
Glad you like the Intarsias, They are made from solid pieces of different woods that you basically cut and carve the shapes and then glue them all back together to create one big item. I use lots of hardwoods from recycled tables etc from Charity shops so i help them raise money by buying stuff they would normally throw away if its damaged etc but i pas the wood through my planer/thicknesser and the wood is now like brand new ready to be made into critters. some of them take a couple of months to make but it keeps my brain cell ticking over lol. I am useless at everything else but I have always loved woodcarving etc.
I have attached a couple of photos, the Deer are life sized and the Norton motorcycle is around 3ft and all made from Oak/Mahogany/Beech/Sycamore/Iroko etc.
They help me think about other things and since losing Ruth its really helping me cope.
Bye

Update

Moved into my new home on 28th June, it’s a lovely little house, the same one I posted about and it needs very little doing to it, I had a new loft hatch and ladder installed and the latch on the side gate fixed but that’s about it, just surrounded by boxes of stuff at the moment, I’ve got Cornwall hospice care (charity shop) coming to take loads of stuff away on Tuesday next week so hopefully I can get rid of most of the boxes downstairs!! Then I can start the spare room ( mine is done already) . It’s so convenient being near everything, ten minutes walk to work ( instead of 2 hours commute on bus each way!!😱😱) and loads of buses, every ten minutes into town. My house backs onto a nature reserve, it’s so quiet , away from main road and traffic! Bliss !! I’ve ha couple of moments obviously where I became all nostalgic for the old house but I know I’ve made the best decision for me, I’m very happy in my new home 🏠❤️❤️