Hi Lossedboy2017, I am so sorry that you lost your Dad, brother and Mum. I hope you find being on here helpful. The members are lovely. I lost my mum when I was 15 and then after different losses, I lost the last member of my family I'm close to, my grandad a month ago. Most of the time I'm crying then sometimes I still can't quite believe it. Even today for 1 second my mind tricked me and i thought what time i was going to call him and then it hits me all over again. I feel lost like you x